I will come back here after my last paper. So I wrote, but I kept writing it in bits. God abeg.
Whew, it’s been what? Five months, or maybe even more, or less? I don’t know. This mail is to somewhat give you an update of where I have been to, and what has happened over the course of time. In this mail I will be sharing all the lessons God has taught me this year.
This year for me was a whole lot, I did things I never thought I could do. I also didn't do some of the things I thought I would do.😅
This year, I can say that God taught me so much about obedience. I have learned and I am still learning prompt obedience – The kind that God has ordered. What counts is not if we eventually obey, but if we obey at the time God has asked us to.
This year I learned to trust God and obey Him. Take it from me, obedience is hard. Imagine God asking you to stop what He asked you to start? The questions people would ask, the fear of what would people say. I asked God all these, and feared in my heart if people would see me as unserious.
This year was the year I thought I would finally learn and find balance, but I didn't. Allow me laugh small first. 😅
Several times, I was juggling between School, Business, Ministry, Family and personal life. Several times, I broke down and cried, like cried real life tears that only my core people knew about.
It would surprise you to find out that, at several points this year I felt like an absolute failure. I felt like I was failing, because I couldn’t find my balance. One thing God told me was that, when you find a balance, you may see no need for God. So, God teaches us to trust Him, and walk with him, figuring it out, a day at a time.
This is to encourage you, if you think you are having midlife crisis, or feeling like a failure, God doesn’t raise failure. He strengthens weak men, if you have strength of your own, then maybe, just maybe, you don’t need God’s strength.
This year, I started out a business in fear. Fear of if people would patronize me, fear of if I would be good enough. The fear of if I would be able to sustain the business. Well, I have had to let God lead me by hand and help me live a day at a time. To be quite honest, I stalled on this business idea for a long while, like two entire years. Fear held me back. I am super grateful to God for the gift of my friend, Gbemileke, who motivated me and has encouraged me so far. I know you will read this, so thank you so much, God bless you, and I love you greatly!
This is to encourage you, don’t fear or fret! As God leads you trust Him and do just what God has asked you too. Don’t allow pressure push you to do things God has not led you into.
This year, I have learned that effective communication doesn't mean always saying things exactly how you feel. Sometimes, you have to consider how the receiving party would take it, and also if your immediate feelings are correct. Allow God to work on your speech such that it is seasoned with grace from time to time, so the words you utter can bless others and not tear them down. I am still learning the application of this, day by day. Thank you, Pelumi, for helping me know that you compliment or appreciate things first before critiquing them, well, I now know and I'm doing better.
I have learned that whatever God is doing with you, He knows better than you! Just trust Him. This year, God ordered my steps and led me to divine friendships. There were friendships I needed to cut away from but couldn’t. God helped me to cut away from some friendships it was painful, but now I know better. He has helped me heal from friendship hurts.
This year I learned to love and experienced love. Love is a very beautiful thing when it is reciprocated. I'm grateful for the gift of my friends and family, who showed me love and allowed me to love them in return. Love is God's order for all humanity. When you love God first, He begins to work on your heart, as much as you allow Him, such that you begin to see and treat other people like God sees them.
This year, I learned not to have unrealistic expectations of other people. At the same time, I also learned to communicate my expectations with them. See ehn, if you can extend grace to others, you'd find out that they are humans with weaknesses just like you, and this would help you lower your expectations and also help you not to feel entitled. If you need your friends to love you a particular way, pray about it, and discuss with them.
This year, I learned to wait on God. Don't go without hearing a word from God. Pray. Pray long prayers, it gives you accuracy, precision, and clarity. Every idea you have must first be subjected to God in the place of prayers. Pray to get directions and God's backing. God is not a busybody, He won't come into affairs you don't invite Him to, unless on the account of mercy.
Trust me, I am not yet a master of all these, God just pointed them to me at several points, and He is helping me work on them.
Let me round up saying I am super grateful for the gift of my friends, my core people, thank you for making my 2023 journey of ease and of bliss. God bless you! Let's do more in 2024.
To my When Girls Pray sisters, thank youuuuu. Let's love up on Jesus the most in 2024.
To my newsletter family, you guys are the realest gees, then you for not disappearing on me. God bless you, Here's to hearing from me frequently or occasionally in 2024. Anyhow, you will sha hear from me. 😅🥂
As we go up to 2024, allow God to teach you forgiveness, understanding and love. You cannot be like Jesus, if all these are not yet in you.
Yours-in-love,
Mo, The Light Bearer. ✨🤍