Dear Lightbearer,
I am sorry i went AWOL, i really am. I know sorry doesnt cut through, but i am here now. God helping me, i am here to stay! At least for now. I hope you find meaning in this letter and it encourages you or someone you know, so share it!!!
You don try, you really have tried. Sincerely I see the amount of work you have put in this last 8 months and if you’ve not had anyone come to tell you this, my guy you don try, na man(woman) you be.
So, in the last couple of weeks and even a few days ago I have had to deal with feeling inadequate. Several times i beat myself up because i don't live up to the expectations I created for myself in terms of achievement. I kept feeling stuck and couldn’t even explain to anyone how I was feeling. I wasn’t making any tangible progress, at least that was what ithought.
When I sent out the last mail in June, June 30th if I recall well, I felt like I wrote rubbish. After that time, I have had several drafts I ought tohave completed and publish, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it because I felt I had to deliver top-notch. But one thing I have come to learn is that ‘God is actually not looking for top-notch, He is looking for my very best. And when I can't give my very best, He wants me to rely on Him as my source and not beat myself up’.
Dear you, I see your struggle, I see the amount of work you have to put in and yet it looks inconspicuous. I may not be there to see you with my physical eyes, but I see it all, through God’s eyes in me. I see how much effort you are putting in day and night. I see how resilient you are, I see how you keep pushing yourself even when there is seemingly no progress. I see you, and I celebrate you.
On days when you are not at your very best, and you want to throw in the towel please don’t. Someone out there sees what you are doing and looks up to you as their source of inspiration. You cannot afford to dash their hope.
That you haven’t been feeling up to yourself doesn’t mean you should stay down. In all sincerity I can relate to that feeling of inadequacy or zero progress, but one thing I have come to learn is that, you are enough. Yes, take a break sometimes when you feel the need to, but do not give up! Maybe as a student affected by the strike you feel stuck. I can relate too, but heyyyy you are enough, and you are not a failure.
Give yourself some credit, you are doing so great, at leaast within your present capacity. You dey try!
If you are a Creative, your art is good.
If you are a Parent, you are doing a great job at parenting.
If you are a Student, you are so brainy. You sabi book!
As a Child, you are amazing, obedience is tough work and look at you giving it your very best.
My guy, just take a look at you, giving everything you do your very best shot. You are excelling, surprisingly. I know you do not believe it just yet. Well, I believe in all I have said concerning you, because that’s exactly what God thinks of you.
Now, after all said and done(reminds me of Jaymikee’s new song End of time from the album S.O.T.E, check it out if you haven’t) it is time for you to get up, dust yourself off and go back to doing what you do best. It is time to become better at what you do. Like DDK said, “Become so good at what you do that you cannot be ignored”. It is time to bring out the very best in you. Keep striving. Don’t quit. There is so much more to you than all you have seen in time past or all you can see now.
I leave you with a promise for you from the scriptures in Isaiah 43:2 “When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.” NLT
Yours-in-love,
Mo, The Light Bearer.
I've sha said it, anybody looking 'up' to me had better look to Jesus. Cos, they'll be so disappointed.
Thank you for acknowledging our struggles, cos, e chokeee! But, through God we are doing valiant well!
And, I really really hope that God holds your hands and walks with you, every step of the way. Take your accolades and standing ovations, for doing well and showing up, when you can and have the strength!
Thank you😭💚